Chapter 10 - THE ROOM I COULDN'T ENTER
"Can you show us Mommy's room?"
Mateo looked up at me.
Behind him, his three brothers waited with the serious patience only four-year-olds could manage.
For five years, I'd walked past Sofia's bedroom without entering.
After her funeral, I'd moved into the smaller room at the opposite end of the hallway.
Her things remained exactly as she'd left them.
The pale curtains.
The dressing table.
The blue chair beside the window.
I'd told myself I was preserving her memory.
Now I understood I'd been avoiding my grief.
"Yes," I said. "I'll show you."
I took Mateo's hand.
The other boys followed.
Elena and Rosa came with us.
At the bedroom door, I stopped.
My fingers rested on the handle.
For a moment, I was back at the hospital.
Hearing the doctor tell me there was nothing more he could do.
Seeing Sofia's wedding ring in a small plastic bag.
Feeling the world go quiet.
Then Nico tugged my jacket.
"Daddy, is it stuck?"
I looked down.
"No, buddy."
I opened the door.
Sunlight spilled across the carpet.
The room smelled faintly of cedar and lavender.
Elena had kept everything clean.
But she had respected my request not to change anything.
Sofia's blue sweater lay across the chair.
Her favorite book rested on the nightstand.
A small ceramic bowl held her hairpins.
Mateo walked toward the bed.
"Mommy slept here?"
"Yes."
"With you?"
I swallowed.
"Yes."
He climbed onto the edge of the mattress.
"Was she nice?"
I sat beside him.
"Very nice."
"Did she like dinosaurs?"
I smiled.
"She liked almost everything."
Luca examined a framed photograph.
"She has pretty hair."
"She did."
Tomas found a small knitted blanket folded inside an open basket.
It was pale blue.
The same blanket I'd discovered after Sofia died.
He lifted it.
"Can I have this?"
I stared at the unfinished stitching.
Sofia had made it for a child she knew she might never meet.
"Of course," I whispered.
He wrapped it around his shoulders.
"Soft."
Elena turned away to wipe her eyes.
For the next hour, we explored Sofia's room.
I told the boys how she used to sing while making breakfast.
How she loved roses but couldn't keep them alive.
How she once adopted an injured pigeon and insisted it needed a name.
"She called him Frank," I said.
The boys burst into laughter.
"Frank the bird?" Nico asked.
"Frank the bird."
Their laughter filled the room.
And something changed.
For years, Sofia's belongings had reminded me of everything I'd lost.
Now they were helping me share everything she'd given us.
Later, when the boys went downstairs with Rosa, Elena stayed behind.
She stood beside Sofia's dressing table.
"There's something I should tell you," she said.
I looked at her.
"Sofia didn't only worry about Rafael."
"I know."
"She worried about the man you were becoming."
The words hurt.
But I didn't turn away.
"She loved you, Alejandro. She just hated seeing how much of your life belonged to fear."
I sat in Sofia's blue chair.
"She used to tell me that."
"She wanted a different future for the children."
I nodded.
"And she was right."
The next morning, I made a decision that shocked everyone in my organization.
I summoned the remaining executives of Moretti Shipping.
Not the armed men.
Not the enforcers.
The accountants, legitimate business managers, and employees who had spent years keeping the company operating.
I met them in the main conference room.
Some looked nervous.
Others expected an angry speech.
Instead, I placed a folder on the table.
"The waterfront accounts are being audited," I announced.
Nobody spoke.
"Any contracts supported by intimidation, illegal payments, or concealed transactions will be reviewed. Where wrongdoing occurred, we'll cooperate with investigators."
One executive stood.
"Alejandro, you could lose everything."
I looked at him.
"I already know what losing everything feels like."
Another man shook his head.
"What happens to the employees?"
"Legitimate operations will continue where they can do so lawfully. We'll protect wages and benefits as far as possible. The people who worked honestly won't be abandoned because management failed them."
A younger accountant raised her hand.
"Does this mean you're leaving?"
I considered the question.
"For years, I believed this company needed a man everyone feared."
I looked toward the window.
Outside, four little boys were playing soccer with Elena.
"I don't believe that anymore."
By afternoon, news of Rafael's arrest had begun spreading across Chicago.
Reporters gathered beyond the gates.
Old associates demanded explanations.
Some were frightened by what the investigation might uncover.
Others were furious that I'd opened our records.
Marcus warned me that cooperating would not erase my own responsibilities.
I understood.
I'd spent years benefiting from a system that hurt people.
Changing my mind didn't undo that.
That evening, I found Rosa sitting alone in the kitchen.
She looked worried.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"The boys have been through so much change."
I sat opposite her.
"Are they having trouble?"
"Nothing unusual. They ask questions. They want to know where they'll sleep tomorrow. Whether I'll still be here."
I felt a familiar ache.
"They're afraid of losing another home."
Rosa nodded.
"Children need consistency more than promises."
She was right.
So the next morning, I canceled three business meetings.
I ate breakfast with the boys.
I helped Tomas button his coat.
I listened while Nico explained why his stuffed rabbit needed a birthday party.
And I spent forty minutes building a cardboard dinosaur with Luca.
When Mateo asked whether I'd be there for lunch, I said yes.
Then I was there.
It wasn't impressive.
It didn't require money.
But it was the beginning of something I'd never learned to do.
Be present.
That afternoon, Marcus arrived with a different kind of problem.
He wasn't alone.
Standing beside him was Marisol Santos, the longtime financial controller of my shipping company.
She had worked for my organization for fifteen years.
I knew her as a careful, serious woman who rarely spoke during executive meetings.
She carried a thick black accounting ledger.
Marisol placed it on the table.
"Mr. Moretti, Rafael wasn't the only person hiding transactions."
I looked at Marcus.
He said nothing.
Marisol opened the ledger.
Several entries were marked in red.
"Some of these payments were authorized directly by your office."
I stared at the pages.
I recognized my initials.
My approval codes.
Transactions I'd barely examined.
I had signed them because Rafael told me they were necessary.
But they were still mine.
Marisol looked at me.
"The investigators are going to ask about these."
I closed the ledger.
For years, I'd expected loyalty to protect me from consequences.
Now I understood that real loyalty sometimes meant telling someone the truth they least wanted to hear.
"Then I'll answer."
Marcus studied my face.
"Alejandro, you need to understand what that could mean."
"I do."
He lowered his voice.
"Your sons have only just found you. Depending on what these records show, you could face criminal charges yourself."
I looked toward the garden.
Mateo was running across the grass, holding Sofia's little blue blanket above his head like a cape.
My heart tightened.
I'd finally found my family.
And now I had to decide whether protecting their future meant risking my own freedom.
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I placed my hand over the ledger.
"Marcus, arrange the interview. I'm not going to teach my sons that being a Moretti means running from the truth."
